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Of nightmares and hope

“Ma’am, I am back home!”

It was music to my ears. Then came the description.

One of my students united with his family after recovering from Covid this evening. While his father is making good progress and will be home in another two or three days, he wonders why he hasn’t joined them yet. 

“There was a man about 30-32-year-old in our ward. He was talking to another man on the nearby bed. And suddenly, he started breathing heavily. His chest was heaving. The nurses came running. Oxygen mask was put. He struggled to breathe and within minutes, he was no more.”

His words… It seemed like he was narrating an episode from some daily soap. The difference, however, was that it was the stark reality. The reality much of India is dealing with right now. Call it dramatic, heartbreaking, miserable or what not, the Covid wave has rendered us handicapped. 

What also awaited him at home was news of his uncle's passing away because they couldn't find a Plasma donor on time. The tone of his voice sent a chill down my spine. There was a sense of detachment. This isn't what should ideally constitute a teenager's life story. 

The stories are only getting more painful – aam janta, journalists tweeting about decreasing oxygen levels and dying, pleading for help. Wait! It doesn’t end there. The family members had to wait for hours for the body to be taken in an ambulance. Shortage of oxygen cylinders, medicines, plasma, beds in hospitals are tales that are all over social media.

I was one of those people who refrained from posting these on social media. Your opinion, whatever it may be, has a way of getting on the wrong side for someone out there. And the ensuing “comments” may turn ugly and some even have the ammunition to jeopardize bonds that weren’t meant to end that way. These and many more were my reasons and I chose to stick by them. Until last night. Until news came of my friend’s dad urgently requiring Plasma (which even as I write, I am toggling between tabs to see if there is an update about it – 24 hours post sharing it on all possible social media pages!)

They even said that love and Covid are similar, you do not understand its gravity unless it happens to you. Or to a loved one, in my case. It’s been a tough time. The helplessness, numbness that follows is only some of the few things to weaken you further. Last night seemed never-ending, Sleep eluded me. And that’s when I decided to bring my comparatively dormant Twitter account back to life.

Wouldn’t it be just another person seeking URGENT help? What can I possibly achieve?

The questions were many but I chose to put them aside. It was 1:30 am and within minutes, I had retweets, comments and to my utter disbelief, help from strangers. I had tears in my eyes. Friends too, in whatever capacity they could, routed everything my way from forwarded messages to screenshots. 

What overwhelms is the fact that for a generation that has adjectives like “self-centered” and “selfish” to its credit, I found people wading through a treacherous sea -- some don’t know swimming, some barely remain afloat, but people holding hands and refusing to let anyone sink while swimming to reach a shore, any shore. Of course, there are the occasional weeds in the form of fake messages and dis-information. At a time like this, I only hope they are cut short.

That’s the trouble with the sea. It can tire one after a certain period. While the grip might loosen, and many will be consumed by the sea, those who emerge out of it will have stories to narrate, the future awash with memories of a dreary night.

While we try hard to wade through this, I thank each one of my friends and strangers who came out to help and provided leads. While the storm rages, let’s stand united in our cause. Let's be there for each other, with enough distancing, of course! Let's see this through. 


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